Monday, April 12, 2010

Your Love Inspires Me To Be A Better Human

Recently a friend wrote me a note..... a hand written note, which are more special than any other kind. It said "Your love inspires me to be a better human"  I'm not sure how thoroughly this friend thought that through before writing that, but it has had an enormous impact on me. I've had many cards and notes from people I love and respect who have written very kind and generous words to me over the years. I have families I have provided child care for who have said and written things, to express to me how much I'm loved and appreciated, which have made my heart melt. This particular statement however has run through my head numerous times and I believe it is the highest compliment I've ever been given from another adult.  (Children say wonderful things to me all the time but adults aren't always as generous in expressing such emotion!) These words take my breath away and makes my soul smile in a way I've never experienced before. I'm a different person now, because of those words.

All Apologies-Sinead O'Connor

Jump In The river-Sinead O'Connor


the phone calls
always left me unsure
they'd never say things of their own accord
I am preoccupied
I can't get them out of my mind
they are terrified

and if you said jump in the river I would
because it would probably be a good idea
you're not supposed to be here at all
it's all been a gorgeous mistake
sick one or clean one
the best one
that God ever made

when I kissed you
you didn't mind
I thought I tasted of too many cigarettes
but you tasted of wine
and I'm not going to change my mind
just because of what they said
the worm has laid eggs in their hearts
but not in my head

(chorus)

there's been days like this before
and i liked it all
like the times we did it so hard
there was blood of the wall

and if you said jump in the river I would
because it would probably be a good idea

My Special Child-Sinead O'Connor

The Official Video and best version is on found on here on You Tube but this is a live version from 1991
I cry as I post.

My Special Child

Think about my little girl
Her yellow skin and her dark curl
And how her father's heart was frozen
I spoke to her and I said:
"You won't regret the mother you have chosen"
I lied. Where's she tonight?
I left him now we're apart
And I think about his cruel heart
And how his lies have left mine broken
To think that I spoke to him then I said:
"She won't regret the father she has chosen"
I lied. Where's he tonight?
You were precious to me
After all I called you into being
I wanted you to know that
Yes, you were precious to me
And I miss my little boy
I strayed away, so far away
And I need him tonight
To feel his hands around my face
His loving eyes
His happy face
Would be so right
Once I sat in my husbands car
Him in my arms, woke up and saw me crying
My heart wouldn't work
And this he did my special child
He touched my face with his hand and smiled
Oh boy, everything's all right
Don't cry, everything's all right
Don't cry, Jakes's here tonight
Don't hide, Jake's here alive 


Untold Stories-Sinead O'Connor

While I'm Living
Thanks I'll Be Giving
To the Most High You know,

I am living while I am living to the father I will pray
Only he knows how we get through everyday
With all the hike in the price
Arm and leg we have to pay
While our leaders play

All I see people a rip and a rob and a grab
Tief never love fe see tief wid long bag
No love for the people who a suffer real bad
Another toll to the poll may God help we soul
What is to stop the youths from get out of control
Full up of education yet no own no payroll
The clothes on my back have countless eyehole.
I could go on and on the full has never been told

I am living while I am living to the father I will pray
Only he knows how we get through everyday
With all the hike in the price
Arm and leg we have to pay
While our leaders play

Who can afford to run will run
But what about those who can't:they will have to stay
Opportunity a scarce, scarce commodity
In these times I say: When mama spend her last and send you go class
Never you ever play
It's a competitive world for low budget people,
Spending a dime while earning a nickel
With no regards to who it may tickle
My cup is full to the brim
I could go on and on the full has never been told

I am living while I am living to the father I will pray
Only he knows how we get through everyday
With all the hike in the price
Arm and leg we have to pay
While our leaders play

All I see people a rip and a rob and a grab
Tief never love fe see tief wid long bag
No love for the people who a suffer real bad
Another toll to the poll may God help we soul
What is to stop the youths from get out of control
Full up of education yet no own no payroll
The clothes on my back have countless eyehole
Could go on and on and the full has never been told
(On and On)
Though this life keep getting me down
Don't give up now
Got to survive somehow
Could go on and on and the full has never been told

I am living while I am living to the father I will pray
Only he knows how we get through everyday
With all the hike in the price
Arm and leg we have to pay
While our leaders play

Who can afford to run will run
But what about those who can't:they will have to stay
Opportunity a scarce, scarce commodity
In these times I say:
When mama spend her last and send you go class
Never you ever play
It's a competitive world for low budget people,
Spending a dime while earning a nickel
With no regards to who it may tickle
My cup is full to the brim
I could go on and on the full has never been told
I could go on and on the full has never been told
I could go on and on:.
The full has never:.

Been told...



Sinead O'Connor the brave, on SNL

Her famous performance on SNL where she rips up the photo of the pope.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Awesome List Of Animal Ingredients

I've posted a link before of Hidden Animal Ingredients by the Vegan Society but this one published by peta2 has a few more that are noteworthy.

Mama Said There'll Be Days Like This, There'll Be Days Like This Mama Said

It's cold, it's been raining for days, I've been waiting for something to arrive that hasn't yet and I just got a call from the bank that my account has been compromised.... AGAIN! (weren't these new chip cards supposed to end all of that??) I was told today how huge I owe on my income tax, my house looks like a bomb hit it and I'm super exhausted. My kids are bouncing off the walls from eating so much Easter chocolate this week and the thought of them behaving like this over these next few days makes me want to just crawl under a rock and hide out til it's all over and all 208 foil eggs are gone. But I won't. I have a family to take care of, errands to run, laundry to do, meals to make, Kindergarten to volunteer in, friends to see and a job to get to. It's all part of being a Mama and Mama said there'll be days like this....

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Good Things Come To Those Who Wait

I'm told by people all the time that I'm a patient person. I try not to let everyday stuff bother me but it's in my nature to be anxious.... and the waiting game kills my spirit a little bit inside. It can be anything but it has to have some significance to me for it to get to this point.... waiting for something important in the mail, or to hear back from someone about plans, or news regarding one of my kids, etc etc. I try to talk myself out of getting that way when I begin to feel it happen but... it always seems to happen anyways.

Right now I'm waiting for a specific day to arrive and it can't come soon enough. For the last few days I can't get the thought of it out of my head and I've even dreamt about it. I've often heard the phrase "Good things come to those who wait".... This particular day cannot come soon enough and seeing as I'm "waiting" for it, I'm hoping the "good" comes along with it....

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Life-long Vegetarian and proud to be Canadian. Really, I'm a little bit of everything, all rolled into one. I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother, I'm a sinner, I'm a saint (I do not feel ashamed) I'm your hell, I'm your dream (I'm nothing in between) You know, I wouldn't want it any other way..... (I'd like to think that song was written about me! lol)